I have been searching for a new roommate for 6 months. Normally I try and fill the empty room with in 1 to 2 months have after having been notified that someone is moving out, but this time it was harder because I couldn't replace the person that left. Not being able to replace that person and the friendship that was there is a hard thing to think about. I knew I would have to find someone that wasn't going to replace her as that friend, but I also knew that I wasn't finding the right people initially when I was interviewing people to live with us. I took a couple months where I didn't even interview anyone to live with us, but after the holidays I knew it was time for that room to be filled.
I had quite a few people find the room from our old listings on KSL, but not anyone that would fit exactly. There were some "it could work" people, although I had the same kind of people playing back in September and none of them were exactly right either.
On a seemingly unconnected note: I've been having a lot of dreams lately about being pregnant. I knew that it was the Lord trying to tell me something as he sometimes does in my dreams, but I'm not very good at being able to decipher what is being communicated most of the time. Sometimes I dream about children when the Lord knows I know what to he wants me to do and I'm struggling with actually moving forward with the decision. However, these dreams have been a bit different as I was not feeling like there was decision that I should be making , but I started to realize that something was going to change... I just wasn't sure what yet.
I haven't been as close to the Lord lately as I have wanted to be, but this last Sunday I got up to bear my testimony in sacrament meeting for the first time in 5 years by myself without having been asked to speak in church. I used to get up every week with a friend of mine who has special needs and was in my ward 5 years ago. That was during the time that I was dating my ex-fiance, so getting up and bearing my testimony in my mind tied back to that time frame and I have been trying to separate myself from that time of my life for some time (it's easier to forgive if you forget). I never liked getting up and doing it on my own in the first place, so helping my friend bear his testimony made it easier to bear mine. Because I finally got up the courage to get up there and bear my soul without external requirements (a lot of internal promptings), I started having more dreams that the a Lord was trying to tell me something, more often than I have had in a long time.
I had been seeking actively for a solution to help me ensure that I would be able to get a new roommate and fasting and some prayer were added to it this week as well. Luckily for me the Lord was listening and trying to tell me that he was going to be sending someone my way (hence the pregnant dreams). Today I received a call from a girl who was seriously interested in coming to live with us immediately! Tomorrow she moves in and we are ready to begin another chapter in the story of my years at the 1234 house.
